I do not subscribe to the belief that my experience is The Immigrant Experience, and yet: I am an immigrant. Thus, mine is an immigrant’s experience.
Now, my playgrounds were both in private and in public schools. Surrounded by the well-off, no doubt about it. And although there was that brief time of unemployment in the early 2000s, my father has always had a job where he has rightly risen as time has gone on.
But that’s not the point. The point is that although I do have three part time jobs as a full time undergraduate student, with student loans, I have had some beautiful privilege.
Sure, I’m a woman, Mexican, English (although my native) is not my first language, I’m LGBTQ, and I fit the bill as mentally-ill. But in the Contest of Privilege, I’ve got the best one on lock. My home was happy and healthy, and I am not poor.
I did not grow up in poverty, working menial tasks on the street to buy food. My father did not come as a temporary migrant to do the hard labor that is the picture of Mexicanness in the US of A. I am not the first in my family to graduate university, or graduate school, or medical school.
So when I came to the US as an Immigrant under an H1 visa provided by the need for special skills labor under NAFTA, I was mostly here legally.
But you know who was this person? This poor, hardworking girl who put herself through grade school, then high school and into higher education? To have 7 children, lose 2, and have the other 5 become professionals? Whose father entered the US and was returned a handful of times, while working and toiling to send money back home? Who saw, not a Better Life, but a chance at a Life instead of existence.
No, it wasn’t my mother, but my grandmother.
That’s her life’s story.
And where in 1946 my great grandfather found himself in Chicago as a manual laborer. Here I am in 2016, an undergraduate linguistics student at the University of Chicago.
Three generations later, 50 years, not even one full lifetime and the world is exponentially changed. Except that that story never really changes, does it? The white, Trumpian, Estadounidenses cling to their immigration laws, and their ideas of nationality and home and country. And don’t they realize that it was only in 1848. That their Southwest, was ours. And I don’t mean the country of Mexico’s, although that is true. I mean that that was ours. They came later. And they stayed, and we were still here. And more of us came later. But they believe this place to be uncontestedly theirs. And their sneer at the Luiseño, and the Navajo, and all the real native born, because they’re either poor or ‘unfairly’ rich with casino money.
And I understand, suddenly. Why the “Israeli-Palestinian” conflict is so entrenched. And one of those red-capped Americans said once of it, “I just don’t understand what’s so special about some land.” And isn’t that just hilarious. Just some land. They say as they have so much to say, about just some of their land.
And history will be kind to me, as I intend to write it. But how much of me will be enough for you? Because as much as you’d like to equate your laws with morality itself. There is nothing illegal in our countries about leaving, and then in the time it takes to step over a line crafted by the rich for their own fortune, suddenly our existence offends your so-called inalienable rights.
But we have no interest in your rights. You can keep them, or fight to take them from your neighbors, all we have interest in is in living. And while you’re busy getting puffed up about being right and how oh no you’re not racist you just believe in law and order. We’ll be busy doing the very things we’re fighting to do. Having babies, and raising families. Getting a title, and passing the bar. Working hard at work worth doing. And inching our way onwards and forwards in the never-ending pursuit of absolute happiness.
There are plenty of arguments to be had, and so much policy to come. But let me ask you a question: How will your life be improved if everything you desire to transform in this country is come true?
What will change, for you? Not for ‘your country’, not for some religious or political ideal, but for your life. What do you imagine being able to do differently?
Because when I transform the world in my dreams, I can marry whom I wish, I can walk where I may, I can feel valued, I can embrace my community as an equal and I can shed my fears. And that is where I’m going, as the great granddaughter of a migrant and a First-Generation Mexican-soon-to-be-American. Creating this new land with, and through, my life.